Thursday, December 31, 2009

Year 2009 Review

Since I'm rotting at home, and seeing that there's still approximately 1h30mins to the NEW YEAR.
I shall do a review of Year 2009 :)

In the Year 2009, I have:

* successfully cleared my much-dreaded accounting module!:)
* achieved better grades than the previous year!:)
* gone on a short but happy holiday with my most beloved boyfriend!:)
* survived my crazy schedule of juggling btw school, bf & tuitions!:)
* successfully organised(or co-organised)all the 21st Birthdays of the PRFs!:)
* organised a national-day steamboat!:)
* successfully organised the very crazy & fun & colourful gathering!:)
* celebrated my fourth year anniversary with Jer!:)
* learnt driving a manual car!:)
* failed to get my driving license!:(
* survived a shopping trip to JB w Meifeng & QiaoYun!:)
* fell in love with CHINCHOW w MILK!:)
* attended my closest cousin sister's gorgeous wedding!:)
* felt a even stronger desire to get married SOON ever since!:)
* learnt to not expect too much of people!:)
* lost my voice during my birthday period AGAIN!:(
* survived the hectic second semester of projects!:)
* watched tonnes of good movies with my boyfriend!:)
* watched stupid movies such as THE BOX, THE TREASURE HUNTER, INDIANA JONES!:(
* gone to COMEX with my boyfriend and enjoyed myself SO MUCH!:)
* gone for SUKISUSHI buffets with friends & boyfriend!MUSSELS MENTAI!:)
* made many trips to ICHIBAN restaurant with Jer!:)
* attended and helped out at Jesus Heals 2009!:)
* attended my sister's MEET-THE-PARENTS session with my boyfriend!:)
* received 21 lovely red roses from Boyfriend on my 21st birthday!:)
* been truly surprised by Boyfriend's appearance on my 21st birthday!:)
* rebonded my hair!:)
* spent her last day of Year 2009 all alone! :(
* felt truly loved by her boyfriend & her friends!:)

I guess, that's more or less it.
:D Happy New Year in advance, people!:)

Last Day of Year 2009

Today is the last day of the year 2009.
Just decided to end this year on a nice note with this post :)

Didn't get to do much this year.
Wanted to do something special.
But ended up staying home for the entire day.
Sigh.
Ah wells.
Here's my list of "thanksgiving" or rather, things/people I'm thankful for :)

I thank God for my family; though many a time, I grumble and whine about them.
but I'm thankful that they are always there.
and I do know that whatever they do, their intention is good and simply just wanting the best for me :)

I thank God for my boyfriend;
Having him in my life, really means the world to me.
I'm thankful for the things he does and the effort he puts in, in order just to make me smile or simply to keep me happy.
I love you, dear.

I thank God for PRF; the bubbly girls who promise to be there for me.
Our outings and gatherings always give me something to look forward (though organising is really troublesome :p).
Nonetheless, I'm thankful for them.
Be good girls wherever you are, alrights?
the next outing will be set when the two members return!
:DD

I thank God for my uni friends;
Entering into a new university, I'm glad and thankful that I've met some really good people.
thank you for being such great and fun company :)

Okay lah. Feel so long-winded :(
This year, my countdown will be spent staring at my computer screen on FACEBOOK! :)
how exciting. >.<

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Came by the following and was sharing it with my gorgeous Peiling.
and decided to just blog it :)
Source: MSN.com

Best Marriage Proposal 2009 by MSN.com

You Ought to Be in Pictures
The one thing my boyfriend, Josh, and I don't have in common is movies -- I love them, but he could care less. But for our third anniversary, Josh offered to take me to see one. When we walked into the theater, it was already dark, so we grabbed a seat near the front. Suddenly, a picture of us came up on the screen -- Josh had made a movie about us! He and some of our friends acted out scenes from our relationship, and as the movie ended, I turned and Josh was kneeling on the floor. He opened a box with a ring pop inside just as the words "WILL YOU MARRY ME?" flashed on the screen. Then the lights turned on and everyone yelled, "Surprise!" Both of our families and our closest friends were in the theater watching the whole time!

A Fish Tale
My boyfriend and I flew to Seattle and visited Pike Place Market, famous for its fishmongers who throw fish. One of the fishmongers asked me if I wanted to catch a fish. I was nervous that I'd drop it, but I caught the fish and held it above my head to the applause of onlookers -- and then someone shouted that there was something in the fish's mouth. I discovered a plastic bag, tore it open, and found a small box inside. I turned around to find my boyfriend down on one knee!

Love Note, Redux
My fiance and I started dating our senior year of high school. He was shy, so he wrote me a note and left it on my desk -- it was super-dorky and asked if I wanted to "go out with him, be together, or whatever." Then he wrote, "Sorry about the note. I really like you. Jim." Now we're both teachers, and when I got back to my apartment one day after school, there was an envelope taped to my door. As I began to read the note, I realized I'd read it somewhere before. He had rewritten that original note, but changed it to "Will you marry me, be together forever, or whatever. Sorry about the note. I really love you. Jim." He was waiting in my room to propose.

An Offer She Couldn't Refuse
My boyfriend, Mike, and I were at my cousin's apartment, hanging out with her and her husband and their baby, Ryan. Mike is Ryan's godfather. We were all in the living room playing with the baby, and my cousin asked us to change him into his pajamas. So I unsnapped his onesie and went to pull it off over his head, and I realized he had on another one underneath. That onesie had writing on it: "AUNT GG, WILL YOU MARRY MY GODFATHER?" I read it, and then I looked next to me, and there was Mike down on one knee with the ring! And, of course, I said yes!

An Unforgettable View
My boyfriend, Rob, is a pilot, and we often take trips in a Cessna airplane. One night, Rob told me he had rented a plane for the next morning for what I thought would just be a typical flight. After we were in the air for about five minutes, he switched radio frequencies. This wasn't a normal procedure, so I was thinking, Oh gosh, what's wrong? Then Rob asked me, "What's that down there?" I looked down to the ground below us, and written on a football field were the words "Will You Marry Me, Delilah?" Of course I said yes, and the news of our engagement was broadcast for all to hear on radio frequency 123.45.

Love in Any Language
One day, at the hospital where I work, a fellow nurse walked into the OR and handed me a card. One side of the card said, "Chinese," and the back had something written in Chinese. A moment later, another nurse came in and handed me another card. On one side it said, "German," and the other side said something in German. This continued for 45 minutes, with cards coming in all different languages. I didn't know what to think until one of my patients complained of stomach pain, and I lifted up her blanket to find a card that said, "French," which is a language I read well -- I realized that all of the cards said, "Will you marry me?" I opened the door to the recovery room and found my fiance holding the final card. One side said, "English," and when I flipped it over, it said, "Will you marry me?"

Well-Played Proposal
For my birthday, Dell surprised me with a weekend at this beautiful, secluded house. That night after dinner, we decided to play Monopoly. On one of my first rolls, I landed on "Chance." When I pulled the card, it said my name and I was so confused. Dell had designed the card and had written a letter to me! At the end of the card, it said, "If you'll look my way, there is one thing I want to ask..." And when I turned to look at Dell, he was on his knee and holding the ring.

Rules of Engagement
My boyfriend, Nate, had been deployed in Afghanistan for a year, so for my birthday, Nate's friends threw me a party so I wouldn't be alone. The last present I opened was a card that told me to check my closet upstairs. In the closet, I found a DVD with a note that said, "Watch immediately." It was a video of Nate in Afghanistan, holding a sign that said to go to the first place we met. We all drove over to the school where Nate and I had been kindergarten classmates, and then I saw a soldier on the playground. Before I could process what was happening, I realized it was Nate, who had somehow managed to come home. I started bawling on his shoulder, and then he got on his knee and pulled out a ring that was custom-made for me in Afghanistan.

A Walk to Remember
Daniel and I met when we both decided to hike the Appalachian Trail. We met only a few days into our separate hikes and developed a wonderful friendship as we walked across the country together. Six-and-a-half months later, we reached the summit of Mount Katahdin at the end of the trail, and one year after that, Daniel took me back to the trail for a picnic. After we ate, Daniel helped me to my feet and then dropped to one knee. He said if we could walk 2,000 miles together through rain, snow, stress fractures, lightning, bugs, and creepy townies, then there is no doubt that we could take on anything else that life has to offer, and he couldn't imagine any adventure he would want to embark on without me by his side.

Sweet, isn't it? :)

Monday, November 30, 2009

Last day of November ler..
In November, I think the best thing that happened for me,
was being able to take a short but memorable trip with my JER.
(Photos up on FaceBook)
and this month marks our 3 years & 11 months!
Just another month to go! ^^ WHEE...

it just felt like yesterday that I took photos w JER on the last day of YEAR2008.
and now, 2009 is coming to an end too.
let's hurry up go create more memories for this year before it flies by!! :DD

PS: BF I LOVE YOU MOST! ^^

Thursday, November 19, 2009

it's TOMORROW!
woohoo. i need to sleep soon >.<

Friday, November 13, 2009

wells. I'm back from my vacation.
Will update about it soon.
right now, I just feel so shitty.
and my driving practical is in seven days' time.
not that it matters anymore.
sigh.

Saturday, November 07, 2009

I was reminded of that hurt, that pain.
urgh. it sucks.
why did i have to be reminded of it?
I'm thinking...
Perhaps, God meant for it to happen so that I realise that I haven't really let go of that hurt in me yet.
MAN!!!!!!!! :(

Monday, November 02, 2009

有一种爱叫做放手.

I actually feel kind of better today ler.
Yesterday night was horrible.
and I'm very thankful for Yvonne's phonecall and her time spent listening to me.
Thank you ah bon :))

I feel tired.
one last paper to go.
jiayou, limjiaxin.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

this is what i did today.

1. Had to walk a far distance because a bus broke down and jammed up the lanes.
2. Counted coins in the shop.
3. Ate bak kut teh (not my fav shop one).
4. Played games at boardgame cafe.
5. Rebonded my hair and dyed it (from 4.30pm to 9.30pm).
6. Came home on an empty stomach.
7. Going to sleep on an empty stomach and sad mood.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

it was a yes-no question.
but sigh.
never mind.
so many things to study.
but having stupid headache.
SO SIAN la.. >.<
where did my motivation and momentum go!! :(

Monday, September 28, 2009

Saturday, September 26, 2009

I'm trying to learn something.
but somehow, because it has associated with something else, I don't feel like it anymore.
I'm possessive, I know.
sigh.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

where ignorance is always bliss, one should not let her curiosity get the better of her.
and end up like me.
Feeling really terrible.
I feel heartbroken right now.
it's hurting me.
:(

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

hello world.
hello stranger.
sighh.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

16 september 2009.
it's the first time that I felt so traumatised in my whole life.
and I thank God for keeping you safe.
really. please promise not to get me so traumatised again.
I love you :)

Friday, September 11, 2009

today was a great day.
I went to COMEX w my most beloved boyfriend.
RAWR! the carparks were all full.
had to wait quite long to get a lot.
and thank God that we only took around fifteen to wait for one :D
then walked around.
SO MANY THINGS THAT WE WANTED TO BUY.
then boyfriend was busy enacting the scene from SHOPAHOLIC: "Do I really NEED this?"
So Cute!! :D

So we walked everywhere and were so tired.
SO happy for Boyfriend!
he bought a new external hard drive and antivirus!
whee.

OH! we were heading for the food area near the Fountain of Wealth.
when I stopped to look at something of a small restaurant.
and boyfriend couldn't resist the temptation anymore and so we settled for it.
hehs.
it's SKINNY PIZZA @ suntec city.
the food was fabulous!
okay not very great.
but savoury :)
we really ate a WHOLE COW i think.
haha.
and boyfriend wasted money on some UNIQUE thing.
:p
then we headed back to wdls, wanting to watch movies.
but cldn't get tix.
and being a glutton, despite being so FULL, I forced BF to eat topless five @ Swensens with me :D
WAHAHHAHA :D
I AM SO HAPPY TODAY :D

Thursday, September 03, 2009

headache.
stressed.
unwell.
unhappy :(

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

happy day :)

today is a happy day!
I went over to Malaysia.
:) so happy to be back in a place where the food is yummielicious and cheap.
where kbox-ing is so fun and cheap.
where life just seems so relaxing;
hehs. maybe its my mentality ba.
I always feel more relaxed in msia; probably I lead a more hectic life here bahs.

Went in the morning.
Waited for Jeremy to take his own sweet time to fetch me.
then we wanted to eat kway chap one.
but never open.
and so, we went for our favourite bak kut teh with the "STANDARD ORDER"; and my boyfriend finished three cups of barley drinks inclusive of MINE :P

Went home to see BOBBY!
man.. he's still so cute.
and oh! and my boyfriend's nephew is so ADORABLE!! :))
Boyfriend watched some show on discovery channel while i read my book.
then after which, I was watching FRINGE and he was busy playing MAFIA WARS AGAIN!!
then, he had some meeting w his brother which i found to be REAL BORING and i went to read my book again.
HEHS.
waited for them for damn long.
then we finally got to go SING SONG!
wheeeee. my boyfriend sang until now got sore throat :P
but it was so enjoyable! :))
then we went for dinner with his family!
Great fun too :)
but time really flew past DAMN FAST la.
and now, I'm home sweet home le.
Wished I could have spent EVEN more time there :/

Saturday, August 29, 2009

I just finished a great book today.
it was so ROMANTIC can!! :D
two fabulously sweet proposals :)
hmm. okay, it's late.
I'm turning in lers.
oh! before i go!
just wana wish my best friend:
HAPPPY 21st BIRTHDAY ESTHER TOH LUI JUE!!! ^^
ps: i still remember how to spell your chinese name in hanyupinyin. amazing!

YAY! yesterday went watch YEAR ONE & District 9 w boyfriend.
was really tired but the company was great! :))
then went to eat ichiban and we managed to keep the bill within fifty bucks for the FIRST TIME! :D
LOLS.

it's exactly two months from now.
yay! R-O-A-D-T-R-I-P!!! :DD

Friday, August 28, 2009

its O-V-E-R !!!!!!!!
for now. haha.
whee. Boyfriend is coming over to celebrate with me! :)
yay! it's been such a long time since i last watched a movie w him!!!!!!!!!!!
:'( and such a long time since i last saw him :(
but it's gg to be fun FUN FUN!

Thursday, August 27, 2009

two down. one last to go.
and one last day to chiong finish.
I feel so unmotivated to even start doing.
it's such a stupid assignment.
all about stating. B-O-R-I-N-G

BOYFRIEND! come back soon, please! :(

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

happy 44th monthsery!

sobs. don't get to spend it w my boyfriend!
sad.

however, I'm quite happy today.
cause I've submitted my LM essay and got only 2% :D
and it's nice to know that BOYFRIEND rmbs! :))
so touched ^^

Sunday, August 16, 2009

NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothing's gona change my love for you
You oughta know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gona change my love for you
You oughta know by now much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there(for you)if yu should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothing's gona change my love for you
You oughta know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gona change my love for you
You oughta know by now much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you
Nothing's gona change my love for you
You oughta know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

thanks for enlightening me.
Thanks for making me realise "Cost and Worth are two very different things".
thank you :))

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

low on everything.
seriously not feeling well.
totally sian :'(

Saturday, August 01, 2009

:)

thanks for simply being by my side today :)
thank you, dear boyfriend :)

The Hangover was great; PERFECT! :)
FOP with you.
I like the message today. Real good.
thanks for attending with me.

thank you, my dear.
I love you :)

Thursday, July 23, 2009

I look forward to one thing everyday :)
it's my only motivation :))

Sunday, July 12, 2009

:)

Things to be happy about :)

1. I survived my first day on the road!
it came as a total surprise;
haha. No more driving in circles in the bus bay ler!! :)
whee :)
and I did ok, I think :))

2. I bought a new fluffy soft but firm pillow.
whee!! ^^

3. SCH's starting TML!!
whee. I'm so glad to be going back to sch!! :)
Can't wait! :))

okay. that's about it.
Don't want to be a grouchy girl anymore; it's destroying my health.
:) i want a bright yellow flower too! :)

Friday, July 10, 2009

With a glimpse of hope, comes some little expectations,
and with all that, comes great disappointment if you're not careful enough.
:(

Thursday, July 02, 2009

I'm NOT so grouchy today.
:)
Tiring day.
Perhaps, today, I'll be able to just drop into sleep w/o much trouble.
I need my rest badly :(

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Was just browsing through my own blog.
Just realised I haven't been happy in weeks.
I know alot of people are worried about me.
But I'm fine, really.
thanks :)

Issues are left unresolved.
No communication attempted.
Oh wells.
I'll wait.
Maybe a few more days and I'll make my decision.

PS: HEY YOU! thanks for the sweet chocolates.
I'm feeling much better w the chocolates! :))
it's true that chocolates make you happy.
at least, I know someone bothers :))
thanks.

another boring day at home.
*yawns* not feeling too well.
Been not resting well enough.
Just called the people to cancel my booking and reservations for today.
So freaking paiseh; 'cause it took them quite alot of trouble to get me what I wanted.
and now. great. sighh.

Finally found the song that I want lers.
Kind of happy about that :)
man. I need a big box of chocolates to tide me through this!! :(

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

this song speaks it all.

范玮琪 - 是非题
每段故事都有一篇剧情
每段爱情都像动人旋律
一颗真心却只向着你前进
也许爱 越单纯越着迷

你是窗外另外一片风景
在你眼里我是什么关系
你的呼吸藏在我的爱情里
何时能诚实面对自己
那一句我爱你
我们从不开口那个言语
永远像少了勇气
别人都说
我和你之间的关系
没有人相信只有关心

我们从不正视那个问题
那一些是非题
总让人伤透脑筋

我会期待
爱情盛开那一个黎明
一定会有美丽的爱情

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Friday, June 26, 2009

you made me realise:
1. whatever I say, is bullshit.
2. whatever I need or want you to do for me, you do for others only.

ha. the irony of it all.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Humans are hard nuts to crack.
When everything goes well in life,
very seldom, people think about properly cherishing someone, or even showing their appreciation of having someone in their life.
More often than not, people say they are too preoccupied with other things in life, thus they forget to do so.
How sad, right?
:'(

So, people, remember to show your love for the people who have been standing by you and caring for you.
Tell them that you cherish them. :)

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

i wish i wasn't feeling insecure :(

I hate this feeling.
This feeling sucks.
Why do I even have this feeling?
rawr.
I don't want to feel this way.
SHOO!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

:(

:(
Life goes on, I guess.
The good thing that has ever been happening for me recently is that my faith has been growing stronger.
:)

Cooked dinner just now.
Accidentally landed a deep cut on my finger.
Painful. but not as painful as the hurt I received from your words.
I guess I need a long time to recover this time.

Lesson Learnt today : I possess all the flaws that I'd hated myself to have.
GREAT. sigh.
:'(

Saturday, June 06, 2009

today's a FUN day.
Me and BF went to watch Monsters vs Aliens.
it's a great show!!
we ran into his gd fren and his gf in the cinema!
Such a coincidence.
wahaha.
then we went shopping w them.
Helped to choose a gorgeous diamond ring.
and of course, it was the more expensive one la.
My taste never fails me.
(not that I'm THAT materialistic; but somehow, the prettier things that appeal to me, tend to cost more :p)

after which, we went to eat KU GUA TANG (OUR FAVOURITE!!!!!!!!! ^^)
it's so yum yum, can!
I wanna go again soon, JEREMY! :D
then went work.
after work, we ate yumyum green tea icecream again (OUR OBSESSION! :D)
then we went home rested awhile.
then BOYFRIEND gave me my second lesson of driving.
I know he was trying his best not to lose his patience with me.
ha!
but I know how to turn round and round and ROUND ler!! :)
yay!
but I'm a potential road HOGGER.
:P
but yups, I had fun.
then went home watch teevee, ate instant spag.
the BF taught me the basics of piano; cause I really wanna learn properly :))
MR JEREMY LIM is a great teacher :))
and I love him lots! ^^

okay. tml's my first lesson w my instructor.
hope I'll do ok.
gg sleep.
nights :D

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

I'm feeling like shit right now.
rawr!
really need to scream it all out.
:((
now, I know why I was having the weird moody feelings.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

:0)

yesterday was a well-spent day :)
Went watch Terminator Salvation and Night @ the Museum 2 with Jer.
Both shows are simply fabulous :))
After which, we went to Seasons for some food.
Had nice fat potato wedges (Jer's Fav), yummielicious Cream of Mushroom (Our Fav), nicenice hawaiian pizza :)
and of course, nice swensens' icecream :))
then we went home to go through some cds.
Kind of relive our childhoods :))
so nice!
then went for crabs for dinner before going home.
:))

Life with you can be so simple, yet makes me so happy :))

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Turning 21 :)

Yups. Am turning 21 in less than half an hour's time :)
but I think I've already gotten all my blessings and celebrations done beforehand lers :)
thanks to fellow PRFs; namely ...
Florence Siew
Quek Peiling
Soo Suxian
Yvonne Peh
Eileen Tay
Cheng Liyi
For the really sweet celebration.
and you girls ah,
the video nearly made me cry.
( I had to hold back my tears.)
thank you girls for the KTV treat, and the stars balloons!!
I simply love it.
I know I wasn't the most enthu birthday girl yesterday.
thanks for bearing with me, fellow PRFs.
and thank you to ah bon, liyi and clement for the pwetty wallet :)
thank you all for sticking by me all these while and for your concern, girls :)
oh! thank you to EUGENE toh who cldn't make it.
I know you care too :)
get well soon ya?
and thanks to ANU!
for trying to keep me company with the nuts game and for trying ur best to make the atmosphere as hype as possible :)
thank you people :))
really. thank you.

and of course,
I must thank the person who took pains to convince me that I'm nuts not wanting to celebrate my 21st birthday.
and whom happens to be my most beloved boyfriend, Jeremy Lim Chuan Ghai.
thank you for the gorgeous necklace :)
thank you for the 21 lovely red roses.
thank you for making a surprise appearance.
thank you for volunteering to be my voice when I lost it :)
thank you especially for standing by me and supporting me in all that I do and making sure that I'm happy :)
thank you, dear.

and so, yups. thank you everyone for making it possible :)
I cldn't have been happier.
I love you all! :))

and, I thank God for putting all of you in my life.
I really feel more than blessed :)
thanks.

Friday, May 15, 2009

I'll be away for the weekend. :)
hopefully everything goes well.

It's not difficult at all; just try harder...

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

it's OVER :))

it's finally over!
it's been way too long a period that I've been eating and studying at MACS almost every single day.
SO FATTENING can!
haha.
though I'm feeling kind of lousy for my paper today,
but I am glad that it is over :))

Boyfriend, thank you for making the effort to come over and celebrate the end of my exams with me.
thanks for cheering me up and believing in me :))
I LOVE YOU!! ^^

Monday, May 04, 2009

WHEE!! ^^

I CONQUERED THE M.A.B MONSTER today!!
never felt so happy in a long long time :))
ONE LAST ONE TO GO! :))

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

what to do?
Life just moves on, right?

Saturday, April 25, 2009

oh wells.
you really didn't remember at all.

hmt paper is in one more day.
didn't do well for my individual project.
I need a miracle to help me through it.
No more breakdowns.
I'm sick of it already.
Am going to study somemore.
to quote my avid reader-unifren:
"Even though we may have lost the battle, we are going to win the WAR."
hopes tomorrow will be a better day.

happy 40th months

happy 40th monthsery. but you don't remember.

Friday, April 24, 2009

I MISS MY BF NA.

I miss my dearest boyfriend.
but I doubt that he knows.
maybe he knows; but not the extent of it.
I miss him when I am studying for my papers;
thinking if he's also rushing out his urgently-pending assignments.
I miss him when I am having my meals.
thinking if he remembered to eat in the midst of his busy schedule.
I miss him, simply all the time.
BOYFRIEND, I need a hug badly :'(

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

random tots.

just some random thoughts...

1. Exams are SO near.
yucks. hope it will be over soon.

2. Life sucks at the moment.
but I do try to find some happiness from this dark moment of my life.
thank you to my most beloved boyfriend and my dearest friends for your support :)

3. and ya, I'm turning twenty-one in a month's time.
thanks to those who have asked about how I wana celebrate.
and no, I really don't feel like celebrating it.
I just wana get out of this dark moment.

4. feeling mentally and emotionally tired.
must cheer up soon.
jiayou limjiaxin.

Monday, April 13, 2009

I need a miracle.

I think I need a miracle badly.
a BIG one is needed badly.

I have to make a big decision.
One choice made, would require a great deal of sacrifice.
Or I could choose the easier way out.
and be the self-centered and selfish me.
I wish there was an option C.
perhaps, that option C is a miracle bahs.
Guess, I'll go pray about it.

Lord, if things can't be easier, make me stronger.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

:))

AHHHHHHH. finally home sweet home after a long long day! :((

Two things that didn't make my day :

1. Been approached by the G.H.O.S.T.
she was like practically haunting me!
made me so paranoid!!
she approached me and tried to pinch me with an evil look on her face can!
I'm NOT exaggerating!
ask ronald. he witnessed it ALL. >.<
horrible shit.

2. Bad Strain of my shoulder.
I'm practically feeling like a handicapped lo.
any movement give rise to pain.
even breathing in deep.
Goodness.

Things that made my day :DD

1. it's my LAST day of SCHOOL! :DD *blinkblink*
2. Milo treat from Ronald who claims that it's for not seeing each other regularly enough >.<
3. I got to sit and chat with my favourite people in class!! :))
4. My sweet friends who helped me print my notes so that I can start on my revision :D

Wells. Though things aren't going great for me at the moment,
but I really pray and hope that they will turn out for the better.
'Cause I really feel tired :(

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

IT'S overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr :DD

it's finally OVER!!
Gosh. it was hell.
But I thank God for putting people like my most beloved BOYFRIEND, eileen and emily in my life!
They really helped me through this hell of a time.
Boyfriend had to stay up late for two consecutive days to keep me company despite having to go school really early on the next.
AND! eileen and emily stayed up with me to help and teach me stuffs even though they could well be spending time sleeping.
SO sweet right?
I was totally touched :'(

a big thank you to boyfriend who sacrificed his sleep and for his patience with me.
a big thank you to eileen who stayed up late and went without lunch all because of me.
a big thank you to emily who stayed up late too and stayed back in school to guide me in my work
and a big thank you to eileen again for her "SHOPAHOLIC for the SHOPAHOLIC" email. which really made me smile :))
and of course, the biggest thankyou goes to God,
who put these nice people in my life to help me through such a tough time.
I wouldn't be able to do everything if not for Him.
:))

Thursday, March 19, 2009

>.<

sometimes, I find that life is kind of unfair.
but, whose is fair?
and things tend to happen at the most important time of your life when you're supposed to be happy.
good timing sense uh?

I'm just monologue-ing here.
'Cause I'm dreading things and I'm definitely dreading going for my mktg meeting.
RAWRR!! :'((

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

:(

am sick.
still sick.
Need sleep.
Lots of it.
Need love.
Need tonnes of it.
:'(

HMT finally done!

HMT FINALLY DONE!
gosh. I feel like I'm dying now.
woohoo!
LET ME PASS PLEASE!! >.<

braindead

I'm SO sleepy.
didn't have a goodnite sleep.
and I haven't finish my HMT.
and so, I'm at home still, instead of rushing for MAB class.
I want to finish and sleep!!
but still, I have tuition this afternoon.
HOW AM I EVER GG TO SURVIVE IT ALL?
rawrrrrrrrrr!
God, I pray that everything will be just fine.
Amen.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Lord, I pray for more strength to get me through this. Amen.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

another hectic day

today's actually quite a slack-ish day.
for one thing, I have no lessons today.
for the other, I didn't have any plans to fulfill.

and so, I spent my whole morning and afternoon doing more research for my HMT essay.
rawr! and I ended up with so many readings to complete.
sian.
but actually I found it quite interesting to read.
Spent abt two hours at Macs doing my readings.
:))

Some reminders to myself after some lessons learnt recently.

1. Must learn to believe in and not doubt my abilities.
2. Must learn to stop being paranoid about matters.
3. Must learn to trust people; but not blindly.
4. Must stop procrastinating about work that must be completed no matter what.
5. Must make time for ME-time! :))

:)) ahh.. that's about it :))

Monday, March 09, 2009

Random thoughts

Some random thoughts.
Rainy days evoke emotions :)

1. Am happy that I've lots of me-time today.
really caught up on my sleep and rest.
but still, I'm feeling sleepy.
God knows how much sleep I have been missing out on man :/
gee..

2. HMT deadline coming lers.
and am still kind of struggling with first draft.
man. limjiaxin stop procrastinating and get your work done! >.<

3. I miss going to singsong.
BEEN SO LONG since I last stepped into a KTV and sing my heart out.
sianned.
damn sian.
I NEED AN OUTLET BADLY!! :(

4. Am feeling overwhelmed by my workload that I don't wana care about anything else anymore.
am gg to dedicate this week and next week and the next next week to school work and my tuitions fully.
jiayou lim jia xin! :)

Am gg to do my MAB homework and revision before SLEEPING.
hehs. all the best to myself.
OH! just now was reading a chinese novel which I've been wanting to read since a long time ago.
there was this damn emotional part where it says . . .
思念是用脑子想,相处是用眼睛看,可以思念的爱情总是比较美的。
因为脑子容易美化,眼睛却只能笨拙的反应现实。
so emo right!! :/
but sometimes, it can be true :S

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

I'm so glad that we talked.
I love you . . .

Friday, February 27, 2009

:))

just wana say HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO QUEKPEILING aka my GORGEOUS HELLMATE :))

thank you for inviting us to your 21st birthday party.
it has been a memorable day for all of us :)
:))
Stay pwetty and crazy always ^^

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

overwhelmed.

today was supposed to be a fantastic day.
it's me and Jer's 38th monthsery!
*happy 3 years and 2 months, JER! :)*
was supposed to attend Clement's birthday party together.
Like finally, get to attend an event as a couple; rather than alone by myself.
but ended up, at the last minute had to cancel :(
*sorry eugene!*

am still overwhelmed by everything.
by myself, by everything right now.
Don't understand why things happen in such ways.
Don't understand why people turn out different from what they seem.
Don't understand why love couldn't just stay simple.
Don't understand why some people thinks so lightly of promises made.

situations around me happened in such a way that made me ponder quite alot.
promises aren't made to be broken.
else, you hurt the people who love you.
enough said.

aside from feeling sad,
good things did happen today.
had a great japanese treat @ ICHIBAN from my boyfriend :))
and we got to watch "HE's just not that into You"
it's a totally fabulous show :))
thank you boyfriend :)

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

:S

Am in school right now.
waiting for my turn at the printer.
such a long queue.
There should be a better system.
Hmm.. Maybe can implement Scientific Management in some ways.
HEE. Must be studying too much.
:)
but I'm gonna have to wait for SO LONG for my turn.
judging from the bulk that the people are printing.
SO SAD!!

And I'm so bored.
nothing to do.
nowhere to go.
BORED.
and I miss my boyfriend badly.
Our schedules just like clashing together.
NO TIME TO MEET UP!
oh man.
I'm feeling sad right now.
I wish I can have more time for myself :'(
sighhh...

Thursday, February 19, 2009

:)

Thank God that the hectic period just went and passed temporarily :)

Below are things that happened this week and that I feel like sharing/whining about :))

1. today, I was quite pissed off w my mktg grp member.
I don't like "worriers"; they made me urmmm.. duno what word to use to describe.
anyways, I tried my best to control myself;
so that I won't talk in an intimidating way which I usually do when I want to get my way.
It took me lots of patience to be nice and listen patiently then explain patiently as well.
Gosh. FIVE MORE WEEKS TO GO! :(

2. Was quite relieved that HMT grp proj is done and over with.
Went CELEBRATE w eileen.
:))
but now have to worry about HMT individual.
will start on it SOON.
SOON, I promise. HEHS.

3. I THANK GOD that I don't have money on me today.
else I would have splurge it all.
SAW SO MANY NICE BAGS!
there's this soft leather bag from charles n keith; it's damn nice and EX.
and MY FAV HEELS are on SALEEEEEEEEEEE.
mans. it's a good thing that I don't own credit cards.
I'll be totally hopeless.
hehs. AM doing my best to control :))

4. PAYDAY is coming SOON.
wahahaha. okayy. Will promise to save up most of it.
but I'll be spending some!
SO THAT I CAN FINALLY LEARN DRIVING!
whee....
:DD

5. I miss my boyfriend SO MUCH.
but I'll be seeing him TML!
whee.
we have decided to go running every friday morning at 7am.
WHEE .
SO EXCITED.
man. I shld go to sleep soon.
I so need my energy.

okayy. Logging off soon.
have a great weekend everyone :))

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

hectic and sad week.

this week hasn't come to an end yet.
but I already feel overwhelmed by it.
it's been a hectic and sad week.
alot of upsetting events, irritating events, etcetc.
I'm emotionally drained for now :'(

Sunday, February 15, 2009

valentine's day or not.

yes. Valentine's Day just passed.
HAHA.
but me and boyfriend decided not to celebrate it like usual.
and so, it became another even more "memorable" day just like last year on the same date as well.
ah wells. Thank God it ended on a happy note :))

We had dinner w his family first.
pretty rushed, in my opinion.
and his daddy foot the bill even though we were supposed to be the ones treating.
my boyfriend was made to wear couple tee with me!
he looked so cute in it!
WHEE :)
after which poor boyfriend was dragged off w me to shop for shoes and teeshirts.
HA! don't get me wrong.
We were buying HIS. not mine.
HEE :))
then we went to line up for neoprints.
THREE YEARS nv take lers!! :S
I so love the neoprint!! :))
oh wells. it's just another day to remember.

I love you no matter what happens.

Sunday, February 08, 2009

I AM SO PROUD OF MY BOYFRIEND! :))

This post is specially dedicated to the MAN of my life :)

YES! he's noneotherthan my most beloved BOYFRIEND! ^^
Boyfriend! I know I haven't really told you how proud I am of you :)
and so, here it is.
JEREMYLIMCHUANGHAI! I'm really very proud of you for your determination!
YOU DID IT!
I can't tell you how happy I am.
'Cause it's a hard-to-describe type of feeling.
From the 4th of FEB, JEREMYLIMCHUANGHAI-MYBELOVED, has been promoted from being my GUY, to being the MAN OF MY LIFE!! :))
whee...

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

I NEED A LIFE!

I NEED A LIFE!! :(

Routines are tiring.
Wednesdays are my boyfriend days!
but today was a hectic day used for project meetings.
Had two project meetings today straight after my morning class.
Super tired can.
and my bag is super heavy.
;(
I need a chauffeur w his own car!!
hahaha.

Some randomness of limjiaxin

1. I don't want to become fat!
urms. I ain't bulimic or anorexic!
but I want to stay in a healthy size!!
been seeing alot of people gg out of shape.
no offence.
but I would hate to be like that.
I'll be damn depressed.
but I just don't want history to repeat itself.
(Don't worry. I won't be starving myself; just going to exercise more. ANYWAYS, I can never force myself to hate food! :D)

2. I feel that I want to go for an overseas short term studies.
As in, for the fun of it.
See how bahs. If I'm able to support myself, that is.
HA! :))

3. Turning twenty-one this year.
but I don't feel the excitement as much as my friends do.
perhaps, to me it's just another birthday.
No big celebrations for me please; I just want a peaceful and happy year ahead with no hiccups :)
that's all I want.

4. tuition is totally stressful.
my new students are really challenging.
My schedule is really very tiring.
:((
I've no more me-time.
I need a LIFE! :(

Going to do my HMT project lers.
WHEE!
I need chocolates right now! :'(

QUOTE OF THE DAY : Behind a Successful Woman, is a cat and a fridge full of CHOCOLATES!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

:((

All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go

Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

I'm leaving, though not on a jet plane.
but I really hate to go :(
Feel like crying again :'(

Sunday, January 18, 2009

PENNIES FOR THOUGHTS

Life has been pretty well and fine for me.
Am coping well with school.
Things on my schedule are gradually falling into place;
So I don't have to worry about coping at all! :)
wellwells. Been thinking for quite abit.

PENNIES FOR MY THOUGHTS!

1. First to start off; I've very CHI2 DUN4(slow reacting) muscles.
I was having so much fun and joy in carrying my boyfriend's little nephew.
it was only after many hours of carrying then putting him down.
then the pain strikes me gradually.
my arms cramped for the WHOLE night.
mans. Must try my best to remember not to overindulge in my enjoyment with kids from now on.

2. We have to make many choices and decisions in life.
sometimes, when it comes to things I really dislike.
and when it comes to a point that I feel I've been tolerating for too long,
or when disappointments get too great,
I usually give people only two options.
"Take it or Leave it"
it's just as simple as that.
some things can never coincide with me in the same era, or however you phrase it.

3. It takes two hands to clap.
and many claps to get an applause.
sometimes, I can get really demanding, I know.
but since dunno when, I've always strongly believed that if you want something badly enough,
you will be able to clear all obstacles and make all sacrifices to get it.
I used to be someone who will turn to popping panadols into my mouth whenever I feel a slight headache/gastric pain.
and I grew to be really dependent on those for pain relief whenever migraine hits me in the past.
this sort of dependency should be considered an addiction of some sort bahs.
and I've managed to overcome it perfectly.
it wasn't easy.
Imagine the sort of pain you get from migraine, and having to force yourself not to pop those pills into your mouth.
yes, temptations are there.
They are, always there and everywhere;
Quiting an addiction of any sort, isn't easy; never easy at all.
but with the considerable amount of effort one puts in,
one should think about how his/her effort will go back to square one, before giving in to temptations.
In order to quit any form of addiction, the very first step is to stop finding excuses for yourself to do it again.
Think for yourself, and for the people who care enough to want to see you quit.

4. CNY is just round the corner.
what sort of meaning does CNY holds for you?
since young, I always think it as a festive for reunion.
'Cause my dad's side of relatives all live so faraway from us.
but as years go by, and people grow older and have their own life.
I realised that lesser of my cousins do actually return for the reunion.
and even if they do, there isn't much interaction anymore.
HOW SAD CAN! :(
somehow, CNY has begun to lose its appeal to the younger generations, except perhaps, for the fact that they are able to get hongbaos.

okayy. I've babbled enough nonsense lers.
Life goes on, even when something is lost in its own transit and the earth won't stop spinning for you.
Stay strong and move on.
You'll always see the light at the end of tunnel :))

Thursday, January 15, 2009

:))))

it's thursday already.
I know I haven't been blogging for a week lers.
Been really busy with my projects.
as well as spending my limited free time with boyfriend who has limited time for me too.
Tuition is going to resume for me.
Am kind of looking forward to it.
'Cause I really need the income.
:((
RAWR!!
new school term has been really great with my unifriends.
not quite with the new ones though.
sighh.

MAB class later.
yay! I'm going to be alone!
sometimes, I rather be alone than be around people who so like comparing results O.o!
rawrr! show-off! >.<

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Finally watched FOUR CHRISTMASES!!:))

SCHOOL WAS GREAT today.
but alittle exhausting still.
:))
I love meals with people, mingling around and talking to them about things.
oh ya. today I was making fun of someone and my chinese screwed up!!
SO EMBARRASSING!! :(
must brush up on my chinese lers :)

After school, I came home to finish my chores.
Then I went to find JER.
Finally watched FOUR CHRISTMASES!!
it's super NICE!! :))
I SO SO SO LOVE IT.

I kind of dread tml.
but I know I shouldn't be feeling this way.
I hope my new classmates are nice people.
and they must be friendly!!
haha.
okay. Must get to sleep soon.
it's a LONG DAY tml.
limjiaxin JIAYOU!! :)

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

DAY TWO OF SCHOOL.

it's only DAY TWO of school.
okay. it just felt as though I've started school for ages.
Nahs. I ain't sick of it yet.
Will try my best not to be.
It's just the morning lessons that are totally killing me.
THE MORNING CROWDS, THE MORNING BLUES >.<
and for the whole of the rest of this week, I have morning lessons at 8.30am!!
rawrrrrrr! why the torture!! :(
okay. end of whinings.
:DDD

Was doing my daily bible reading; came across this verse.
Which is really important and relevant to me.
Matthew 6:34 - "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

Feeling sleepy already.
*yawns* it's only TEN o'clock for goodness sake! :'(

Monday, January 05, 2009

LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT :))

SCHOOL WAS TOTALLY FABULOUS TODAY!
it was LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT for me.
Don't get me wrong.
I didn't fall in love with any guy, nor is it my lecturer.
I FELL IN LOVE WITH MY NEW SUBJECT!
"HISTORY OF MANAGEMENT THOUGHT"! *my new love*
*prays hard that the passion will LAST* :DD

must get more sleep.
I think I've been seriously lacking in SLEEP!
*baa baa black SLEEP*
:P

Sunday, January 04, 2009

EMO POST.

I can't tell you how much I'm looking forward to SCHOOL-reopening.

Seriously, staying at home too much, makes me lose my sanity.
so, just let me have an outlet to release some of those unhealthy feelings;
I hate to keep them inside.
sometimes some person who lives in the same house as I do,
says the most demoralising, most insulting, most humiliating things to you.
sometimes, some person makes you feel so unwelcomed that it seems like things will be oh so merry if you move out.
but at the same time, some person restricts you so much like a caged animal with NO freedom at all.
sometimes, you feel like screaming back at some person just so to tell some person that he might not be all that RIGHT after all.
sometimes, you would wonder if that some person ever reflects on himself.
I really wonder, you know.

but afterall, I do not need to get angry over such a person.
I do not need to prove myself to anyone.
I do not need.
one day, I'll get my freedom.

Know the theory about kite-flying?
I like thinking of relationships using the theory of kite-flying.
Kite-flying is a skill; not all that easy to master.
just like the handling of relationships - CONTROL is the key.
Just like flying a kite, you should learn to control the tauting and releasing of "strings" in a relationship.
If the string is too loose,
the kite might not fly well enough.
but if the string is overly taut,
just as I am feeling, right now,
the string might break,
and the kite might never return, once it has flown away...

okay. this is super emo.
I'm feeling muchmuch better now.
seriously, one should always reflect on him/herself, and make changes asap,
instead of being stuck in a stubborn mindset,
forever thinking that he/she is always RIGHT,
and then end up in regrets.
oh wells. like what my boyfriend always reminds me : " Patience, lim jia xin."
I do have that, you know.
hahs.
and I still have that bit of restraint in myself, you know.
I'll just wait patiently for the day freedom comes looking for me :))
TADA! end of those negativity!
SHOO NEGATIVITY!!
stay away from me!! *RAWRRRRR!!*

YAY!! ^^ school tml.
I'm totally happy about it :D
(I'm perhaps, the only soul around, who is THIS happy about school!
it's not just the freedom; but I enjoy studying rather than doing nothing at all.)

Thursday, January 01, 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!:))

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!:))

my New Year isn't as exciting as most of you all.
or rather, on this NewYear, I wasn't in my best of moods.
but ah wells, I made it through with some chocolates.
Thank God for the existence of Chocolates! :))

Since the NewYear is here, I'm going to list down FIVE most important resolutions.
(if too many, I also won't be able to stick to them. Hehs)

LIMJIAXIN's NEWYEAR RESOLUTIONS!
1. To walk more closely with Him in everything I do.
2. To REALLY get on with a fixed and regular exercise regime.
3. To DEFINITELY study HARDER!
4. To spend more time with my family and friends no matter what.
5. To be a muchmuch BETTER and MORE understanding girlfriend to JEREMY LIMCHUANGHAI!